
What good is writing if you’re not being completely honest? When I was in second grade, I used to write in my daily journal complete and utter lies. ‘I can’t wait to get glasses!’ ‘Next week, I’m going camping.’ If you knew my family, you’d know we would never survive overnight in a tent. Lying to your own journal

Clincal depression has been the scourge of humanity for millenia. Mike Wallace talked very frankly about his bouts of depression, especially after the death of his son. Winston Churchill had bouts of depression so well known, he called them his black dog.
Get a full medical check up with fill biochemical work. There are a new generation of medications that can correct the chemical imbalances that are one of the causes of clinical depression, with far fewer side effects than Paxil or other more well known meds.
Good luck and know you are not alone. A good support group or an understanding friend can do wonders in helping you over the rough spots.